Forgotten

 I hear the pain stained moaning of people who once was someone. Identity lost somewhere between reality and their reality. Faded, along with their will to live. Two worlds fused into one chaotic existence.

Steel bars and heavy gates hiding the forgotten from the life they once called their own. Frail, in their beds, strapped to the scares of life, invisible, unbreakable rules keeping them from being alive.

Cocktails of capsules and needles become their savior, saving them from themselves. Ambivalent to the cocktail that leaves them numb. Then the acceptance, to feel nothing is more bearable than the haunting ghosts dwelling through the misty forest of the mind. 

Addicted

You brought light into the darkness that was me

Like the sun, you gave me warmth

Like a breeze, you kept me cool

Like rain nourishing a dry desert so your love nourished my starved soul

You were me and I was you

We were one in the bodies of two

You became my knight in shining armour

You rescued my existence with every touch

I lose control at the mere thought that you are mine

You are my oxygen, my breath

You are in my blood, under my skin

You imprisoned my heart, you the keeper of the key

I am addicted and you are the drug that keeps me from dying

You are a sweet poison, eroding my resistance

You are the alcohol that leaves me dizzy

And the medicine that numbs all my pain

Oblivious Dream

The authority of your presence has me awash with desire

This confusion within me, burning like fire

I would give anything to see approval in your gaze

What I am searching for is your praise

I would move mountains to hear soft words of recognition

To be captured by you is my only mission

I would offer my soul for a mere embrace

But you are absent, vanished without a trace

I would give you my will, for you to break

I would give you my all to squander, to forsake

You lift me up, you break me down

You take me in and there I drown

Hypnotized by your strength, your power

Where you sit there, in your tower

You look upon me in admiration

All I want to be is your temptation

 I shout, but you hear not my screams

I want you closer, you oblivious dream

You hold my strings and control me to fail

I need to break free from this emotional jail

I would be your servant for one night’s submission

Silence would be my only position

Saint in your eyes, sinner in mine

I long for the day I can cross the line

My lies lay scattered upon the floor

He is going to show me the door

I live for the day that all this will end

To look into your eyes and be content

For now you are mine when I close my door

When the lights go out and my mind can soar

I meet you there in our secret place

Where dreams begin and reality fades

But dusk gives way to dawn again

The dream will be just that – the end

Once more where we were before

You calling the shots while I can only adore